Letters to Myself E.08

You are about to enter the new year, 2013. This is the year that you are going to take control of yourself and get your health back. You are going to lose some weight, it really doesn’t matter the actual amount that you lose as long as you are steady with a loss during the year. 

This Christmas break you really let yourself eat anything and you are down to 194.8 which was amazing. This is the lowest you have been in a while; maybe you actually were 193 but eh. You are going to see the scale drop every week whether it is by 1/2 a pound or more. You will be happy with any loss. 

You are going to be participating in your first half marathon. Great things are going to be happening this year for you. Get ready to turn your life around this year and be the best that you can possible be. 

If you just remember where you truly want to be in the end you are going to get through the tough parts. Stop worrying about how people are going to look at you based on the food that you are eating. You need to eat a certain way until you have your health back. You need to take care of yourself so that you can take care of your family. 

Friendly Dinners 01

Tonight is one of those nights that I wish we had one of our special dinners with out great friends, Ashley and Luke. I feel like it has been so long since I last saw them; even though we saw them at the beginning of the month. We are going to start getting our dinners back in order; twice a month with no excuses. I miss my friend. 

Letter to Myself E.07

I am not in a very good place right now. Physically or mentally. I don’t like anything that I wear right now. Nothing’s fits right because it seems to be too small. I need to do something about this before it gets out of control.

I don’t like the way you look at all. Why can’t I grow up and change my ways. Get my ass in gear and just do it damn it!

Letter to Myself E.06

You are trying so hard to mentally prepare for the next phase of your families weight loss challenge. You didn’t take the first phase very seriously at all. In fact I am disappointed with how you failed to lose very much weight at all since August. You are the youngest of your family doing the challenge. You should be dropping more than 6 pounds in 5 months.

You’ve got so many ideas for your blog but you shouldn’t release those details until the new year so you can really start fresh, physically and mentally.

You’ve been watching all of the Extreme Makeover: Weightloss Edition and they have really been inspiring you to take steps in the right direction. You are going to try a new carb cycling program by Chris Powell and you feel completely comfortable with the program. 2013 is going to be your year.